open eyes

29 Nov

He breaks in all around my little world. It’s His hand…every gift comes from it.
Every gift, from the trite to the glorious, from coffee to family, from the changing colors to salvation and peace.
Gifts from God.

Though life is rigorous, we don’t wait until things get better or slower or easier to joyfully live. The route to joy is thanksgiving. There are gifts all around remaining invisible until they’re seen. Whose face are they reflecting?

Let the gifts come alive!
my friends who have become family
the way Andrea never tires from dancing
how the sound of rain makes me feel
the nights when drifting to sleep is seamless
Stan and Jen’s story
my family’s natural joy and laughter
French roast coffee
morning routines
my basic texting phone
how most days I glance at the clock at 5:31 (my bday)
people who care
You’re nearness, even if unperceived
You’re zeal for defending the weak
beaches and oceans, traveling, dessert, colors and the smell of soap

I can paint a picture of You if I never see anything more. You are energy, restoration, joy, creativity, protection, fun and peace. And You enter into my world more when I recognize You’re already there.

Help us walk with open eyes.

(Book recommendation: One Thousand Gifts by Ann Voskamp)


Body and Blood

25 Oct

There’s an open table in the rear of the prayer room always filled with crackers and juice. I’ve found only one problem with this free-for-all style of communion.
Sometimes I take it because I’m hungry. Or bored.
Then one day I realized I’d been taking communion everyday.

At first I felt bad.

But a change accidentally has been taking place in me from repeating:

This is your body…crushed.
This is your blood…spilled.
I will proclaim your death until you come.

If communion isn’t true my whole life is a waste. It’s the heartbeat of everything I’m banking on. Holding that little cup and broken cracker and remembering the Heartbeat has progressively convinced me that this is actually what I believe with every breath, beat, and cell of me. I feel stronger inside than before I started this accidental daily alignment.

I intentionally take communion nearly everyday now and not just because I still come ill prepared with snacks to the prayer room (which I do). But while I’m waiting for those symbols to become living flesh again, I’m choosing to deliberately remember the center of it all…everyday.


30 Sep

Disclaimer: I am an advocate for regular fasting.

Today started a 21-day fast initiated by the International House of Prayer (IHOP) leadership team. We’re voluntarily fasting to seek God’s face, the fulfillment of His promises, direction and encountering His Love.

I’m aware that I’m at risk for loosing my heavenly reward by sharing, but here goes.

The night before the fast (so…yesterday) I decided to fast fasting. I’ve done a lot of striving to push forward my spiritual growth and, when done in efforts to earn something, little pieces of my heart die. This time I want to take a different approach, so instead of fasting, I’m adding.

Some things I’m gonna do more:
drink more water (yep it’s part of my commitment)

Some things I’m gonna fast:

thinking, because I think too much
fidgeting, because I fidget too much

My goal is to be at ease in God. I want to give Him my undivided attention.

Day One: check. Well….we’re getting there.

It’s from September 29 to October 19 if you’d like to join! Maybe there’s something you’ve been wanting to fast or add. There’s never been a better time.

I Blog

28 Sep

I like communicating. I like newsletters, so concise and organized. I also think I’ll like this blog, less concise and less organized. However, I can’t find anything to say so far. I’ve dismissed every topic as me “trying too hard.”
Trying too hard…that’s the worst.
So I’ll wait until I’m inspired. But please subscribe and I’d love to give you more of a window into my brain and this great journey Jesus got me on!